Wednesday, 12 February 2014

Ace's Place

The rest of the night I found myself tossing and turning and hardly getting any sleep. The night seemed to drag on forever until finally it was a reasonable hour to wake up. I poured myself a large mug of tea and typed up all my college notes from Monday. I felt so relieved that it was Friday and almost the weekend which meant I could relax and hopefully help James get better again. I was just after lunch time when my phone began buzzing.


“Hey, are you okay?” Ace said quickly down the phone.

“Yeah, I’m fine, why wouldn't I be?” I asked a little taken back by his suddenness.

“I came by your surgery this morning but they said you were at the hospital all night, what happened?” he asked sounding worried.

“Oh, James was rushed into hospital last night, I was with him,” I told him, it felt like last night was ages ago.

“What?” he asked sounding shocked.

“He over dosed, the doctor said he had a seizure,” I said, twirling my hair around my finger nervously. I couldn't understand why I felt nervous but something about the attention being draw to me negatively made me feel uneasy.

“Scarlett, are you sure you’re okay?”  He asked.

“I don’t know, I want to be,” I told him taking a deep breath.

“Listen, I want you to come over tonight, I’m going to cook for you,” he said sternly.

“Oh, sure okay,” I replied slightly shocked.

“I’ll text you the address okay?” he said. I put the phone down still slightly shocked that he actually invited me over and not dumped me.

As soon as I put the phone down I decided to take a shower and wash my hair ready for tonight. It was already close to 4 o'clock and I was starving. After the mini argument with Ace about him never inviting me over I did feel slightly anxious about going over there. I decided however to relax and play it cool, maybe I over reacted because I was stressed about James?
I decided to pin half of my hair up and let the rest hang loose. I wore a baggy shirt loosely tucked into a black leather skirt with a pair of chunky heeled boots. After throwing on a black blazer I left for Ace’s place.


“Hey!” he exclaimed as he opened the door holding a pack of garlic bread in his hand.

“Hey,” I smiled, kissing him gently on the lips.

“Come in, sit down, dinner won’t be long,” he smiled. I nodded and walked in; placing the bottle of wine I had bought him on the counter as I did. I stood awkwardly in the hall way as he ran back and forth around his little kitchen.

“It’s smells amazing,” I said, hovering behind him as he stirred the food.

“Thanks, its Chilli con carne,” he smiled proudly, “stir this a sec, I need to grab something,” he said rushing out of the room. As I stirred I noticed the recipe pinned up on the kitchen tiles and smiled, even if he wasn't a natural cook I was impressed he was trying. A few moments later he came rushing back.
“Is it all okay?” he asked.

“It’s fine, don’t worry!” I laughed.

“Good,” he breathed. I stepped away and watched as he grabbed two plates from the cupboard. “Sit down, I’ll bring it in,” he said. I nodded and walked into the living room which was romantically lit up with candles.
His food was actually pretty good, it wasn’t as spicy as I would have liked but it was really yummy none the less. After dinner he poured us some red wine and curled up on the sofa.

“You probably don’t wanna talk about it but, how’s James, is he going to be okay?” He asked. I had noticed Ace was avoiding the James situation but I was pleased he hadn't ignored it completely.

“I hope so, when I last spoke to him he seemed to be more like his old self,” I said, swirling my wine around the glass.

“Well that’s great,” he said.  I nodded slowly. “So what’s up then?” he asked.

“It’s just, I don’t think Billie is going to forgive me for this… like ever,” I sighed.

“Oh don’t be so dramatic!” he laughed, “she’s your best friend, once James explains it to her she will understand I’m sure, I mean, I don’t get girls but I know they always stick together,” he laughed.

“Not always,” I groaned.

“shh, don’t be grumpy, James is safe now isn't he? And that’s what matters, right?” he said.

“Yes, okay, I’m happy! I laughed.

After relaxing myself into Ace's place I looked around properly. I could tell straight away I was in a serious bachelor pad. He had huge plasma TV mounted on the wall and black leather sofa planted in the middle of the place, with no cushions, don’t men realise how important cushions are? He also had lots of retro art prints on the wall which weren't to my taste but I could see how they would appeal to him. His apartment was pretty small but it was painted light blue which made it feel more open and spacious which I liked.

“You know, I’m glad I have you,” I smiled, sinking my head into the curve of his neck.

“Mm how glad? He asked with a mischievous tone. I giggled.

“Very glad!” I laughed, kissing him on the lips.

“Oh, do I get my reward now?” he smirked, kissing me hard. I grinned and nodded.

“Finally,” he smiled, sliding his hands down my body.

“Do you live alone?” I asked in-between kisses.

“No, I er, have a roommate,” he told me, lifting off his shirt.

“Won’t they be back soon and we are… on the sofa?” I blushed, feeling him unclip my bra.

“hmm, he might like that,” he laughed kissing down my neck.

“Ace, that’s gross!” I said, slapping his arm.

“It’s fine! He’s staying somewhere else,” he told me convincingly.

After making love on Aces sofa… yes I know that’s not very classy, Ace sat up and looked at me.

“Right I know this is going to sound really, well nerdy but… I need to play this game,” he said, running his fingers through his hair.

“You need to?” I laughed frowning.

“Well, yeah, its important, I'd explain it to you but, you’re a girl, you wouldn't understand,” he laughed, getting up off the sofa and opening up a glass cupboard under the TV.  I was literally speechless. I mean, I’m not a crazy feminist but I believed in being treated as an equal, its hard out here for a woman you know.

“I wouldn't understand because I’m a woman? Don’t patronise me by calling me a girl Ace,” I said crossing my arms. Ace lent his head back and groaned.

“Oh, I didn't mean it like that, you’re not a girl gamer Is what I meant,” he said.

“Whatever,” I sighed, grabbing my shirt.

“Ow, don’t put that back on, I wanted to watch you play topless!” he laughed.

“Ace just shut up!” I snapped.

“Oh, come on, I’m joking, I’m joking, here, I wanna teach you,” he said. I shook my head and continued to get dressed.
“Scarlett, I was messing about, please don’t be mad.”

“Ace, I really don’t like being talked to like that,” I told him whilst grabbing my coat. He quickly got up.

“Scarlett, I’m sorry, I didn't think first,” he said standing in front of me. I looked up at him

“It’s fine, just let me go home now,” I said, trying to move past him.

“You really are taking this badly, I honestly didn't mean to offend you, me and… the guys we have jokes like that all the time, I just assumed…”

“Ace please, your digging yourself a bigger hole, I understand you wanna make a joke but, I’m not one of your boys,” I told him. He nodded and ran his fingers though his hair.

“Just, don’t hate me okay, I just never know when you’re going to take what I say as a joke or not…”

“I don’t hate you Ace, I just, I've been stressed out and, that didn't really help,” I shrugged, biting my lip nervously.

“I feel bad okay, and I'll make it up to you, I promise.” He said kissing me on the lips. I smiled and turned to walk out of the door.

After returning home I let myself collapse on the sofa feeling completely defeated. I really didn't know how to feel. A part of me was so happy to be with Ace but another part of me felt like the more I got to know him the more I saw sides of him I didn’t like, maybe I rushed into this…

Wednesday, 5 February 2014

Hospital.

After work I changed into some baggy pajama bottoms and an over sized  jumper. I let my hair down and begun boiling some pasta over my stove. I was half way through when I heard someone knocking at the door which I assumed was Billie however James was standing there instead.

“James, if you’re here for another fight I’m not in the mood,” I told him, not looking him in the eye.

“Can I, can I come in?” he asked, his voice husky and dry. I sighed.

“Okay, but Billie is coming over soon,” I warned him, holding the door open for him. He walked past me and stood in the middle of my apartment.

“Scarlett, help me, I don’t want to be like this anymore,” he said suddenly collapsing into a ball in front of me.

“James get up,” I said but he didn't reply, “James!” I hissed.

“Help me Scarlett, I’m dying!” he cried. I noticed his body begin to shake.


“James, what are you doing?!” I exclaimed, falling to my knees and trying to pull his arms away from his face.

“You have to help me!” he wept, reaching out and grabbing my fore-arm.

“James, what have you taken?!” I asked, noticing the sweat dripping down his fore-head.

“They were after me, they are going to lock me up!” he cried.

“James, let go of my arm, I need to get help,” I said, trying to pull my arm away but his grip was too strong. “James!” I snapped.


“Don’t leave me!” he cried reluctantly letting go.”  As soon as his grip loosened I got up and ran out of the apartment. I ran to Matt’s door and knocked as loud and fast as I could.

“Hey, hey, what’s up?” Matt groaned opening the door. He was wearing his bed clothes and looked as if he had been asleep.

“Come please, my friend, I think he’s over dosed!” I cried, grabbing his hand and dragging him out of his apartment.


Mat and I rushed back into my apartment to where I had left James on the carpet. When entered the room Matt rushed over to him and tried to turn him over.
"James can you hear me!?" He asked. I backed into the corner unable to do or say anything. "Scarlett he’s not moving!” Matt shouted.

"What do you mean he’s not moving?" I suddenly I couldn't breathe. My hands started shaking at my sides and I felt my body freeze.
"Call an ambulance for god sake!" He shouted.


I stood shaking in silence as the paramedics rushed into my apartment and swept James away on a white stretcher to the ambulance I could hear wailing outside. As I ran after them the whole experience felt like it was in slow motion. I could see James’s body shaking and I suddenly froze. I felt a someone’s hand on my shoulder and spun around to face a woman wearing dark green staring at me.

"What happened to your friend?" She was shouting. I shook my head.

"I need to you to tell me everything! This is serious!" She was saying.  

"She doesn't know okay!" Matt interrupted. I was shaken out of my trance. 

"He took drugs, he’s addicted!” I burst.

"Do you know what kind?" She asked me. I shook my head. She then rushed back over to the other paramedics. I flew my arms around Matt and sobbed.

"He’s going to die!" I cried.

"He’s having a seizure Scarlett they are taking him to the hospital now, do you want to go with him in the ambulance or do you want me to take you?” he asked.

"I’ll go with him, I need to be with him," I told him nodding my head. He nodded. 

In the hospital the wait felt like forever. I wanted to call Billie but I knew she was going to blame me for this, especially if something happened to him. It was only when I was about to call Ace I realised how selfish I was being, Billie deserved to know first.


"Scarlet what’s going on?" She asked rushing into the waiting room fifteen minutes later. I stood up. 

"Billie I’m sorry I couldn't tell you this..." I replied.

"Scarlet just tell me!" I could tell by her raising tone she was getting annoyed.

"Listen I wanted to tell you but I didn't for James sake!"
She sighed angrily.

"James is addicted to drugs," I said softly.

I watched as her mouth dropped and her eyes widened. 

"What the fuck Scarlett?! And you didn't think to tell me this till now!?" 

"Billie I wanted too," I tried to say.

"Where is he now, what happened Scarlett?" 

"I don’t know! He had a seizure or something!"

"Fuck! I don’t believe you!"

"What? Billie James told me he didn't want you to know!" I pleaded.

"I can’t believe he told you and not me!! I’m the one who always spends time with him not you!" She snapped.

"Billie don’t be so immature," I sighed.

"Me immature? You’re the one who doesn't tell me that my best friends on drugs!"

"He’s my friend too okay?" I shouted.

"Obviously" she muttered under her breath.

"Ladies," we both turned around to a doctor standing in the door way holding a clipboard. "Your friend has been stabilised but I’m afraid he’s had a serious seizure.'" 

"What does that even mean!?" Billie interrupted. 

"The seizure was the result of a large overdose of cocaine, his body couldn't handle it, but luckily his heart is fine.'" I nodded, that was a good sign I guess.

"Will he be okay… in the long run?" I asked.

"It depends how much he’s swallowed, although it wasn't enough to cause heart failure-"

"He swallowed, cocaine!?" Billie burst. The doctor nodded. 

"And when can we see him?" I asked. 

"As soon as possible, but please be patient with us'" I nodded.

"I understand I’m a vet myself" I said trying to smile. He nodded and walked back out of the room. 

"I still can’t believe you didn't tell me this until now when it’s too late for me to help him!"

"I knew you’d act like if you had known everything would have been so much better! I couldn't tell you okay, you hate drugs and you would have hated him if you knew he was taking them!”

"I hate him more because he didn’t." She told me.  I sighed and collapsed onto my chair.

"I just thought we were all friends, I didn't think you’d go behind my back and lie to my face! 

"It wasn't like that; I didn't think he would get addicted like he has!”


"And what happens now?" she sighed.

“I don’t know Billie, I want him to get help but he refused to stay with me any longer.”

“This is crazy, why wouldn't you-“ she was about to start having a go at me again but then gave up. “I’m going to speak to the doctor,” she said getting up off her chair and walking off. I sighed realising how stupid I had been. If I had just told her it wouldn't be like this. I pulled my phone out of my bag and noticed it was half 1 and we were still waiting to see James. I knew I wasn't going to make it into work tomorrow so I decided to text Michael as he would appreciate me telling him sooner rather than later.

Hey Michael, I've had a personal emergency and been at the hospital all night, might not make it into work tomorrow morning, sorry.

I closed my phone and rested my head back on the wall behind me. I must have drifted off to sleep because when I opened my eyes Billie was standing in front of me nudging me.
“I’m awake,” I whispered, my head aching.

“I got you some more coffee, the doctor said we can see him soon,” she said handing me the coffee and sitting down on the chair next to me.

“That’s great,” I said, sitting myself up properly and taking a sip of coffee. We sat in silence till about 10 minutes later when the doctor reappeared.

“Would you like to follow me?” he smiled. We both nodded and got up quickly.

When we entered the room where James was laying Billie immediately burst into tears.
“What have you done to yourself?” she cried, leaning over him and holding his hand. I watched as a tear rolled down his cheek.

“I had to tell her James,” I said softly.

“Billie I’m sorry-“

“James I’m not mad about the drugs, I’m mad you didn't tell me okay?” she told him. There was silence.

“Are you feeling okay?” I asked, trying to sound positive.

“Nope, I feel like death, and they say its only going to get worse…you know, when it comes out the other end,” he told me. I winced thinking how painful it sounded.

“Why did you eat cocaine, you know your meant to snort it right?” Billie asked, trying to make a joke. He smiled meekly.

“I don’t know,” he groaned, “I just want to get out of here,” he told us. I smiled sadly. Billie and I stayed with him until the doctor told us we had to leave. I felt bad leaving James but he needed to rest and apparently a psychologist was going to visit him in case he was suicidal. After we left Billie didn't say a word to me, nor did she share a taxi with me. 

Monday, 3 February 2014

First Argument?

The next day Ace came over to my place after work to share pizza with me. We decided to watch Iron Man 2 which Ace told me was one of his favorite movies.

“So, what happened with James then?” He asked shoving a slice of pizza into his mouth.

“Well he came back, got his stuff and then left again,” I shrugged.

“Right and you seem…. fine about it?”

“I don’t like it Ace but I've really had enough of it now, I love James, he’s one of my best friends but if he wants to make them bad decisions then that’s up to him.”

“So you’re just going to wipe your hands off of him?” He asked.

“It’s not like that, I've tried.”

“And Billie, she’s given up on him too?” he asked. I opened my mouth to speak but the words failed to come out so I closed it again.  “You still haven’t told her have you?” he asked.

“I can’t! James told me not too!” I protested.

“Oh come on Scarlett, Billie is his friend too, it’s not cool to hide It from her.”

“I’m not hiding anything,” I shrugged.

“So what have you told her then?” He asked.

“Nothing,” I shrugged.

“What?! Nothing, you've not spoken to her at all?” he asked.

“Oh my god Ace, what has it even got to do with you!” I burst standing up.

“Nothing, obviously,” he replied.

“Ace I’m sorry but you don’t know Billie, she will try and take control and make things worse!”

“Maybe he needs that, since you've given up!”

“I can’t be expected to just devote the rest of my life to helping him just because he’s addicted to drugs!”

“Listen, listen, nobody expects you too, I just don’t think this I-don’t-care attitude is going to help, I know you care, I know you’re not that cold hearted,” he said reaching out and holding my hand.

“But what good will it do worrying about him when he doesn't even care about me and how much I’m hurting!” I said breaking down in tears. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him. I cried harder and harder until I realised how embarrassing I was being. I suddenly pushed away from him and wiped the tears away with my cardigan sleeve.
“I’m sorry, you must think I’m stupid, god, I’m so embarrassing!” I laughed.

“Don’t worry, it’s fine to cry it all out,” he smiled.

“I've just got so much to think about with work and my college course, I feel like James has thrown a huge burden on me, but its cruel to think like that because hes struggling obviously, its just too much!”

“Then tell Billie, a problem shared is a problem halved, right?” he laughed. I smiled.

“So clique,” I laughed.

“Come on, let’s talk about something else,” he smiled, kissing me on the lips. I smiled and kissed him back.

“You know, we should go to your place sometime, its hard having to keep my place tidy for you all the time!” I laughed.

“Er, yeah, of course, you’re always welcome to pop over,” he smiled, his hand slipping around my waist.

“Well invite me and I will,” I replied. I had been thinking that with all the drama with James I hadn't even been to Ace’s apartment yet which was strange. I wondered why he hadn't invited me but maybe he just assumed it would be easier for him to come here.

“Good,” he smiled, kissing me softly on the lips. He then reached up and begun slowly unbuttoning my work uniform, each button he twisted seductively, running his finger down my chest as he did. When my dress was fully open he pushed it back over my shoulders and smiled as I unclipped my bra for him. “I love a girl in uniform,” he grinned, caressing my breasts. He pushed me back onto the sofa and begun kissing down my tummy towards my belly button. I giggled feeling his lips brushing against my skin. He gently removed my underwear and threw it off the bed and went back to kissing my tummy. He gradually got lower till he was kissing just above my pubic bone. I shivered with anticipation. I felt his tongue slide along my tummy as he suddenly slipped two fingers inside of me. I gasped. After half an hour of licking sucking and playing he finally slid back up my body.
“Let’s… lets go to bed,” I breathed, fully turned on.

After having amazing sex I lay on my back looking up at the ceiling trying to imagine what his apartment looked like. I imagined it would be modern since he was quite pro-technology and nerdy but it was hard to imagine anything other than that.

“So, what’s your apartment like?” I asked struggling to picture it in my head.

“Are you still talking about that?” he laughed.

“What do you mean?” I asked rolling onto my side to face him.

“You seem pretty hung up on it,” he laughed, reaching for his phone.

“I just want to go to your apartment, I think it’s kind of rude you haven’t invited me yet,” I told him.

“Rude? What the fuck, we just haven’t got round to it, you’re welcome anytime,” he shrugged.

“I can’t just come round, you have to invite me,” I told him rolling my eyes.

“You’re invited!” he burst, “stop going on.”

“Fine,” I snapped, getting out of bed and walking to the shower.


After I finished showering I came out to an empty apartment and I really didn't understand why. I thought James and I were getting really close and I assumed asking to visit his apartment would be fine but It felt like he didn't really want me there. I was about to go to bed when I got a call from Billie. After what Ace had said I felt like I couldn't ignore her anymore.

“Hello,” I said softly.

“Scarlett! Finally where have you been?” she asked.

“Busy,” I replied.

“Scarlett I know you’re mad at me for shouting at James-“

“I’m not mad at you,” I interrupted.

“Oh, okay, is he with you?” she asked.

“No, he er, he left,” I replied.

“He’s gone, for good?” she asked sounding worried.

“Billie, I’ll explain tomorrow after work okay?” I said ending the conversation.  

Saturday, 1 February 2014

Totally Unexpected!

The next morning I woke up half an hour late. I walked to the bathroom and wiped off all of the make-up which had smudged under my eyes and re adjusted my hair. I was going to call Ace but I thought he would probably be busy at work. I poured myself some cereal and sat alone in my apartment eating it slowly. I had 3 missed called from Billie but I didn't feel like talking to her. I slipped into my work uniform and drove into work.

“Late!” Amy laughed from behind her desk as I walked through the door. I smiled.

“Caught me, is Michael in yet?” I groaned feeling exhausted.

“Nope, luckily for you he’s stuck in traffic,” she smiled, typing away, “but there’s an appointment booked in 5 minutes and you’re going to need to cover for him,” she told me. I nodded.
“Fun,” I replied.

I walked into the examination room and sorted everything out for the appointment, I checked the computer and thankfully it was only a guinea pig booked in for his teeth to be trimmed down which I could do this early in the morning. A few moments later I got an email from Amy telling me the woman was here.


“Morning,” the lady smiled walking into the room carrying a purple pet carrier.

“Morning Mrs Cole, it’s only me, Dr Charnley Isn't in this morning,” I told her.

“Oh, I see,” she laughed, placing her pet carrier onto the examination table.

“Tibs isn't it?” I asked opening the carrier door a pulling out the black and white guinea pig.

“Yup, Tibs today, his teeth are just getting a bit too long, need a trim don’t you tibby,” she laughed.

Luckily Tibs was very tame and Mrs Cole helped me hold him down which was usually my job. It felt good being on my own for a change without Micheal watching over my shoulder or pushing me aside. Just as she was leaving Michael rushed through the door, his bag slung over his shoulder and a coffee cup in his hand.

“Mrs Cole! Good morning has everything been okay for you?” he smiled, dumping his bag down.

“Oh perfect, Miss May here’s been brilliant,” she smiled, nudging me gently. I blushed.

“Oh really, that’s great,” he said looking surprised, “have a great day.”


After she left Michael and I were alone.
“Thank you for covering for me today,” he smiled. I nodded. “And I’m sorry for all the tension between us, things have been difficult at home,” he sighed, “but I shouldn't have taken it out on you, I apologise,” he said placing his hand on my shoulder. I smiled.

“It’s fine, I’m having… problems as well.” I told him.

“If you ever need any help, don’t hesitate to call me, I promise it won’t be like last time,” he said.

“Thank you,” I replied but it still felt a little awkward.

When I got back home I collapsed onto my sofa. I hadn't even thought about dinner yet even though my tummy had been rumbling all day. I checked my phone and I noticed I had even more missed calls from Billie but I still didn't know what to say to her. I was about to get up when suddenly it hit me. Did Matt say EX fiancé when he came over last night? Something must have happened I thought. I suddenly felt guilty, what if it was my fault. I threw on a baggy cardigan and rushed over to their apartment. 


“Hey, do you wanna chat?” I asked standing at the door. He nodded his head.
From the moment I walked in I felt the emptiness hit me. All around me were brown boxes and empty spaces where things should have been.

“It’s serious then?” I asked, my eyes still scanning the place.

“Yup, she’s gone to stay with her mum while she finds a new place, meanwhile I’m stuck with all this junk,” he said kicking one of the boxes with his foot.

“Wow, listen I’m sorry,” I said softly. I really did feel bad for him; although I was happy he finally saw her true colours I could tell he was really hurting.

“It’s cool, it happens sometimes, do you want some tea?” he asked. I nodded. I watched him disappear into the kitchen and then I sat down on his sofa.  Looking around I realised how nice this place must have looked with all the stuff still in it. It was very modern and mainly silver with hints of purple which gave it a homely relaxed feel. Matt emerged from the kitchen holding a steaming mug of tea.
“Here,” he said placing the tea in front of me. I thanked him and watched him sit down.

“So, do you mind me asking what happened?” I asked.

“She… she cheated on me,” he said, he didn't look sad anymore he looked kinda angry. I nodded slowly. “I mean, she’s a model, she’s damn attractive, I knew it would happen eventually, but not this soon and certainly not with her,” I tried to look surprised even thought I knew quite well. “Yup, she likes the play for the other team every now and then” he laughed angrily.

“Right…” I said wishing I hadn't come over now, it was kinda awkward.

“It’s fine fancying girls, I had no problem with that, but for her to think I was wrong because I didn't want to watch her... screwing another woman-”

“Its okay,” I said watching him turning angrier. He then realised and stopped.

“I’m sorry, I’m so rude,” he walked over and sat beside me on the sofa. “You were crying last night,” he said.

“Yeah, I had a fight with this guy I know, he’s been… he’s just not in my life anymore,” I said softly. I felt him reach out and hold my hand. I kinda felt relieved that I wasn't the only person having problems right now and I had someone to understand how it felt to miss somebody.

“So were both in the same boat,” he laughed. I smiled. 
“Jeez Scarlett, you know what the first thing I thought when I met you was?” I looked blankly at him. “I thought why the heck wasn’t I single still!?” he laughed.

“Matt wait…” I tried to say realising he had gotten the wrong idea. I quickly pulled my hand away.

“but now I am, and I’m happy being single” he then reached over and placed his hand on my face. I stared at him speechless. “Because now I can have you,” he lent in and was about to kiss me on the lips when I suddenly shoved him away from me.

“What are you going? James is not my boyfriend!” I burst.

“Woah, what?” he replied going slightly red with embarrassment.

“The guy I was crying over, he was my friend…. I have a boyfriend who I’m happy with!” I shouted.

“Then why did you come over?” he asked standing up.

“To see if you were okay!” I replied standing up too.

“Oh god Scarlett!” He said turning away from me.

“I’m, I’m going to leave.”

I quickly ran out of his apartment and back into mine. I could hear him calling after me but I ignored him. As soon as I got back into my apartment I felt like the stupidest person alive. Why had I gone over there? I asked myself, why was I so stupid to say it like that; he obviously thought I had just broken up with someone too. I then felt incredibly guilty. What if he had managed to kiss me? What would I have told Ace?

Would you tell your partner if someone tried to kiss you or am I just over reacting ?!

Tuesday, 28 January 2014

Confrontation.

A few hours later I was sitting in my apartment waiting for James to return when Ace came round. I had texted asking him to come over telling him it was an emergency.

“Hey,” he smiled walking in the door.

“Hey,” I smiled back meekly.

“What’s up? I got your text” he asked walking over to where I was standing in my dark and empty apartment. He lifted up my chin and looked into my eyes.

“James’s gone again,” I replied turning my head away from him and looking down.

“What? Gone where?” he asked frowning.
“I don’t fucking know! He just started acting all weird okay, and now he’s gone and it’s all MY fault!” I snapped.

“Scarlett, babe, calm down, nothing is your fault okay?” he replied sternly. I shook my head.

“You don’t even know,” I huffed. He looked slightly hurt. “Why does he keep doing this, what are we doing so wrong Ace? Billie and I are always there for him, always, he’s so immature, It’s not funny anymore,”  I added.


“Sit down,” he said softly. I reluctantly sat down with him on the sofa. “Now do you wanna know what I think?” he asked.  I nodded slowly. “I think this has something to do with the drugs,” he said. I looked confused.
“What do you mean, he’s stopped that now,” suddenly the penny dropped, “you think he’s still taking them?” I asked.
“Scarlett I’m not saying he’s doing anything, I’m only suggesting what could be the problem here, he’s been acting weird for a reason, it would make sense.”
“You think he’s… addicted…” I started chewing on my bottom lip, “I should have helped him more.”
“Scarlett, it wasn't up to you to help him." he told me. 



"But how would you know this anyway?" I asked.
"Scarlett, I’m not going to lie to you, I've had plenty of friends who have been addicted to drugs  and as much as I tried it was impossible to help them, unless they want to stop themselves.”

“But James isn't a drug addict, it was that Rodger he met, he forced him, ugh I could kill him, I’m gonna find him, I'm gonna kill him!” I suddenly got up.
“Woah, woah, slow down feisty,” he smiled grabbing me and pulling me back. “Call James first, you really need to talk to him,” He said. I signed and nodded. I took a deep breath and walked over to grab my phone.
“James, if you don’t get back here in the next ten minutes all your shit is going in the bin and I’m not joking right now!” I shouted. 
I slammed the phone down and almost broke down in tears. I hated all of this; I hated feeling angry and letting Ace see all the bad sides of me before he had even gotten to see all the good sides. Even though meeting Ace was the best thing ever, I wished I hadn't met him yet.
“Hey, hey,” Ace said slipping his hands around my waist and turning my body to face him. “Everything is going to be fine,” he told me.
“But what do I do Ace, I don’t want a best friend who’s addicted to drugs, I want to help him but this is all too much, he's gone too far.” I said. 

Ace had to go home because he had work early tomorrow but I told him I would be fine. James returned about 20 minutes later, late was better than never, right?
“James is it true?” I asked as soon as he walked in the door. He strode though my living room looking confused and pissed off. I could tell he was drunk, his face was red and as he walked his body fell to the side. “Are you addicted to drugs James,” I asked sternly placing my hand on my hip.
“What are you talking about Scarlet, I've come to get my stuff and I’m going somewhere else.” He walked towards me and I could see his eyes were wide and blood shot. 

“James are you fucking taking drugs?” I screamed.


“I’m not addicted Scarlet, I just enjoy it every now and then! Oh, oh, is goody two shoes Scarlett going to call the police,” his voice changed from moody to patronising.


“James, I thought you were over this, are you still seeing Rodger too?” I asked.
“No, Scarlett, it’s just me.”
“And your precious drugs?” I mocked. He signed angrily.

“Just leave me alone okay, you don’t need to control my life, you or Billie,” he begun grabbing his stuff from around my apartment and stuffing them inside a large leather bag.
“What did we do wrong James, we were great friends to you, why didn't you tell us about this?” I said.

“It’s nothing to do with you, I just enjoy taking drugs okay, loads of people do it, you need to grow up Scarlett, all you do is follow Billie around like her little bitch thinking everything she says is fucking gospel, live a little!” he laughed. I shook my head.

“Did you bring drugs back here?” I asked softly. He ignored me. “Did you bring drugs into MY fucking apartment?” I screamed.
“Yes!” he shouted back, “Do you want some, here” he asked reaching into his jean pocket and pulling out a little plastic bag containing some white powder, ”here, have some!” He threw the bag at me and I watched as it flew past me and landed on the carpet at the bottom of my feet.

“What the fuck James!” I shouted, quickly falling to my knees. I tried to pick it up but as I did the bag split open and the powder spilled out though my hands and onto the carpet.

“I want you and this shit out of my apartment! Do you even know how serious this is?” I shouted. James shrugged and carried on stuffing his stuff into his bag. I threw away the bag and scooped up as much of the powder as I could, I would hoover the rest up later.
When he was finished packing up his stuff he left without a word.

As soon as the door slammed shut I collapsed onto the sofa and felt the tears fill my eyes. Before I could fight back the tears they were streaming down my face. I felt my body shake as I cried harder and harder. I sobbed until my eyes were red and my face was wet with tears.  I was just regaining composure when I heard the hinges on my door creek.

“Ace,” I said, wiping the tears from my cheeks, “is that you?” I called out

“Sorry, no, it’s me,” said a male voice from behind me. I jumped up and turned around quickly.  “Matt from next door, you remember, Jane’s fiancé… ex fiancé,” he said running his fingers through his mousy hair. I looked blankly at him. “I’m sorry for just walking in like this, oh god this looks creepy, no no, I just heard you crying, I wanted to see if you were okay, the door was open” he said quickly.
 

“It’s fine,” I replied sniffing, “I’m fine.” I said sitting up straight.“Right, right, I’ll er, I’ll go,” he said awkwardly, adjusting his glasses. I smiled.“Thank you, for seeing if I was okay,” I smiled sadly as she walked out of my apartment and shut the door behind him.




 







Sunday, 26 January 2014

All Over Again...

The next morning I woke up with Ace's arm wrapped around me. I smiled and turned over to face him. I watched him as he slept and couldn't help but think maybe I was falling for him.

“I know you’re watching me,” he then said with his eyes still shut. I suddenly jumped.

“I’m sorry!” I laughed feeling slightly embarrassed. He then opened his eyes and leaned in to kiss me. I smiled and kissed him back. I turned back over and looked at the time on my alarm clock. It was already 7am.


“I better get up, ugh I hate Mondays,” he groaned getting out of my bed.

“Feel free to use the shower,” I smiled lying in bed. The great thing about Monday for me was that because I was still studying to be a vet it meant I had to attend college at least once a week which started much later than working in the surgery did. As I lay in bed I felt myself drifting back to sleep.

“Hey,” Ace laughed giving me a gentle nudge. I jumped as I woke up suddenly. “Sorry to wake you, I’m off now though, have fun at college,” he said giving me a kiss on my fore head. I smiled as I watched him walk out of my apartment.

The day felt like it was going on forever. Although college wasn't as tense as the surgery was, the amount of writing I had to do was crazy. I was one of them people who have to write EVERYTHING down or I'll forget it as soon as I walk out of the building. When I got back home I decided to text Billie with my aching hand.



“Ace and I are dating,” I announced to Billie and James after college. We had all gone back to Billie’s apartment and she had made us a super yummy Dutch dish for dinner. James and I had not spoken since he stormed out of my apartment yesterday as he didn't come back last night. I wanted to be mad at him but I also didn't want to upset him.

“Oh my god, I knew it!” Billie exclaimed, “James knew it too didn't you James?” she smiled looking at James, he nodded, texting on his phone.

“It’s like I’m dreaming, I’m super happy, he’s so sexy!” I told them, I was blushing just thinking about him.

“And you totally had sex with him last night didn't you!” she exclaimed pointing at me and giving me a smirk. I hated how well she knew me.

“Yes!” I laughed my cheeks burning up, “and it was amazing!” I giggled like a 10 year old.

“Has he got his whip out yet?” she giggled raising her eye brow.

“No! He’s not even like that Bills,” I laughed.

“You’ll see, soon all them ropes and gags will come out…”

“Billie! shut up!" I laughed. "Anyway, I’m up for anything,” I shrugged. Billie’s eyes widened.

“Woah girl, look at you all sassy and confident!” she laughed.

“Yeah well, I wanna try new things now and I don’t think I could say no to him, he’s so sweet but at the same time he’s sexy, it’s weird… he’s perfect,” I smiled, feeling butterflies in my tummy.

“ahh, this is so exciting, I've got to meet him!” she laughed.

“I don’t want to meet him,” James then interrupted looking up from his phone. “You hardly know him Scarlet, when you spend time with him and you find out he’s a self-centered dick who’s fucking someone else on the side then watch how it all changes,” James he groaned. Billie shot him a what-the-major-fuck look.

“James?!” she exclaimed, “Scarlett is obviously happy right now, why would you say that?” she burst glaring at him.

“Bills its fine, James is right, were sorry for talking about this, I know after what happened it must be hard to listen-“

“No Scarlett!" Billie interrupted, "I find it unbelievable how he could be so ungrateful after everything you and I have done for him!” she exclaimed.

“I don’t even want to stay with Scarlet and you haven’t done anything for me apart from cook me this shitty Dutch food!” James shouted. My mouth dropped.

“Fine, leave then!” Billie screamed pointing at the door.  James stood up.

“James, you don’t have to,” I said quickly standing up. James pushed past me and walked towards the door. “No!” I called running after him and grabbing his arm trying to make him stop.

“Get off me, I’m obviously not wanted here!” he shouted shrugging me away and walking out the door.

“Look what you've done!” I shouted at Billie. I quickly ran down the stairs calling his name. I tried to catch up with him but once I came out of her apartment building I had no idea which direction he had gone.

“Ugh!” I shouted, stamping my foot. I couldn't deal with James going AWOL all over again…

Wednesday, 22 January 2014

Hot And Steamy.

Luckily when I got back from dinner with Billie last night James was there. He apologised for not telling me where he was and told me he had been back to his apartment to collect his stuff. I was just glad he hadn't disappeared on us again however something in the way he acted did feel a little odd. He was acting like there was something he wasn’t telling me which was odd because James is usually very open and chatty with any of his problems. I was worried about his silence but what I didn’t realise was that this was just the quiet before the storm…

“What are you doing today?” he asked making me brunch; I had woken up pretty late.

“Erm, I’m not sure really,” I replied, flicking though the channels on my TV.

“Oh, okay, I’m… I’m going out,” he said quickly.

“Oh, okay, where you going?” I asked casually, getting up and walking over to help him with brunch.

“Just out, do I need to tell you where I’m going, jeez!” He shot me an angry look.

“No, no, sorry, I was just asking,” I said backing away from him.

“I’m only living here because I have nowhere else to bloody go!” He snapped.

“Okay, okay” I replied holding my hands up.

“You’re not my mother Scarlett!” he shouted, slamming the frying pan down, “make you own bloody food!” He then grabbed his coat and stormed out the door.
“Wow,” I breathed after the door slammed. I could understand that looking for a new apartment would be stressful for him and also having to live with and rely on someone else but I enjoyed having him here. Having him here made me feel less lonely and I hadn't even thought of getting a pet since! I really didn't get what his deal was. I decided to get myself ready and ask Billie If she wanted to go out somewhere. I was just finishing off my makeup when I heard my apartment buzzer go off.

“Hello?” I said, thinking maybe it was James coming back to apologise.

“Hey, its Ace, I was passing by and I, well wondered if maybe you wanted to like, hang out?” he asked. I smiled; I could tell he was nervous.

“Sure, hang on,” I replied, buzzing him in. A few moments later he was at my door.

“Im soo sorry I’m not even dressed yet!” I blushed opening the door for him and then rushing into my bed room. I quickly threw on a pair of light grey skinny jeans and an oversized maroon jumper with a white heart on it. I threw my hair up into a messy pony tail and opened the door. “Done!” I smiled. I noticed he looked a bit distracted.

“You look… great,” He smiled nodding his head, his eyes not looking at me. I frowned.

“Is everything okay?” I asked.

“Scarlett, do you have a boyfriend?” He then asked, still avoiding eye contact with me.

“What, a boy friend?” I exclaimed, “Do you think I’d be going on dates with you if I had a boyfriend?” I replied slightly annoyed.

“No, no! It’s just, there are guys clothes everywhere… I thought maybe you was gonna friend zone me or something,” he smiled. I didn't smile back.

“Ace, those are James’s clothes! He’s staying here, why couldn't you have just asked whose clothes they were rather than insult me like that?” I burst.

“Woah, I didn't mean it like that Scarlett, your taking this badly, I just wanted to make sure, some girls do that, I didn't think you was that girl, I was sure you wasn't but, if you had seen women’s clothes all over my apartment you’d be pretty thrown too, wouldn't you?” he asked.

“Ace I do not have a boyfriend, why are so bothered whether I have a boyfriend or not anyway!?”

“Scarlet I want to be your boyfriend!” he shouted back. Suddenly I was taken back.

“You, you do?” I asked. He walked closer and put his hands on my face. He didn't say anything. He just gave me that mysterious half smile and gently kissed me on the lips. I looked into his eyes and smiled before kissing him back, a little bit harder and a lot more passionately than before. Suddenly his hands where on my waist and we were kissing each other harder and harder. His hands slipped up my jumper and slowly lifted it off. I blushed realising I wasn't wearing sexy or matching underwear. He reached round, unclipped my bra and smiled as it fell off my shoulders. We continued kissing each other while he lifted me up and wrapped my legs around him and carried me into the bedroom. I laughed as he threw me onto the bed and he climbed on top of me. After crawling on top he kissed down my neck onto my naked breasts. I moaned with pleasure as I felt his tongue circle around my hard nipples and then suck on them; it felt so good and I wanted him now more desperately than ever. I reached down and unbuckled his belt. We then helped each other take off our jeans. I slowly unbuttoned his shirt while we made out slowly and passionately. After I’d thrown his shirt off he slid down my body and I separated my legs wrapping them around his. I heard him sigh softly as he slid inside of me.

Things were a blur from then on. After we had finished I lay panting, trying to catch my breath. A few moments later Ace sat up and looked at me, he had that grin on his face. He leaned in a kissed me softly on the lips and his hair fell into his eyes. I smiled and tucked it behind his ear. Damn he was cute.

I woke up a few  hours later and noticed my bed was empty. I got up, threw on an over sized t-shirt and walked into the living room where I found a small piece of paper resting on the kitchen counter.


Just gone to grab us something to eat… keep the bed warm ;)  Ace x

I blushed suddenly realising my makeup must be a total mess right now and I was all sweaty. I hurried into the bathroom and quickly turned on the shower. I threw my top on the floor and stepped inside. I shivered as the hot water hit against my cold skin. I reached for the shower gel and poured it onto my body before massaging it into my skin. I thought I heard something but I ignored it, too busy trying to finish my shower before Ace came back.  Suddenly I felt a pair of cold hands slip around my foamy body and I screeched.

“Woah! Owch, it's just me shh” He laughed being to feel up my body. He was naked and his clothes lay next to mine on the bathroom floor.

“Fuck, you scared me, don’t do that!” I laughed turning around and slapping his chest playfully.

“Well the door was open and I couldn't resist…” I smiled as we begun kissing each other. He cupped my face with his hand and kissed me stronger and more passionately than ever before. The water run down both our naked bodies as we pressed closely together, his wet lips exploring down my neck. He then pushed me back against the wall of the shower and kissed further down towards my firm breasts. I tilted my head back until it gently hit against the wall and moaned softly as he kissed around my breasts, my body excited and my nipples hard. He then wrapped his arms back around me and pulled me in closer to him. “Breakfast Is gonna get cold.” He smiled; reaching for my hand and helping me step out of the shower. I wrapped myself up with a towel and combed through my wet hair as he prepared and reheated the ramen noodles he had got us for dinner.

“These are so good, where did you get them?,” I smiled tucking into my food.

“Oh, a little place I know,” he grinned. What could be better than sex, a hot a steamy make out session in the shower followed by ramen noodles?!

“I’m seriously falling behind on the whole gym thing though…” I smiled kinda guilty.

“Well now you have me to work out with…” he laughed giving me a flirty smile. We sat up till late watching Jackie Chan movies in bed. I couldn't believe I actually had a boyfriend, am I dreaming right now?